I'm Lonely - Please Help!!

I have never felt so lonely, i could not bear to tell any one what my heart is going through, climbed unto the bed and pretend to sleep while i drench the pillow with my sorrowful tears, God took pity on me and i slept for few hours, dream is better than reality and i never want to wake up but then unfortunately i did in the middle of the night, just as if her memories was haunting me, i remembered her again! it was as if my heart wanted to burst, i rushed out of the room and went to sit quietly at the balcony

Just me alone, sitting outside on a cold night, i was able to cry to my heart content, there was no one to comfort me, i remember the sweet memories, when she used to be my best friend, we do all things together, walk the street together and stay together so late in the night, those happy memories only make me cry more!

Amidst it all, i never blame her or hate her for rejecting me, all on my mind was what i did wrong, what could i have said that made her reject me, probably i didn't ask her out the right way, or i asked her out too early? all doesn't matter anymore, i just want to forget her and stop feeling this pains, i am losing my mind...... Help