So once again talking about my College and how I struggle with finishing it and how I cant even go to the exam because of the fear.
So we made a little chain. What will happen if
- you go to the exam? I will fail
- if you fail? I will not finish College
- if you dont finish College? Nothing, I am failure
The answer is nothing. Nothing scary will happen. Its okay to have goals and wanting them to come true but nothing will happen if they doesnt. The thought of being not good enought for everyone, not just myself. That is problem I have. I dont thing I am as good as others who have achived that.
How do we get thru that problem?
Well I dont know. The first thing is doing every day something I love.
I keep feeeling guilty if I do something because I always think I dont desirve that and I need to do just things that will complete my feeling of worth and that is study. I currently do study something I dont like but the degree will bring me the options of doing some things I do like and getting more secured life. Its a process.
I cried.
Being tired of my head.
Being tired of myself.
I still dont have an answer.
See ya on my next therpahy.
I did talk with my colleges a lot, and we all strugle with those kind of thoughts and we are all really unhappy in this moment of time.
New Year is around the corner. Wish us luck to get better, Maybe the NY and the perspective and new page. Well new notebook will bring us good vibes and manifests. ♥
Litte doggo at my office 🥰
Quit college and never look back, unless you want to take a course to learn something. Never go to college for a degree. You will end up in debt, burned out, and having lost the best years of your life.