Yesterday while looking at the sky, I saw a bright twinkling star. A vision came to my mind and I aspired for a desire, being with you all the time and walking down holding each other's hands. This is something too unreal to be true but somehow i want to continue in our lives.
I have not forgotten you yet and I admit, I do not know what is the distortion that in my head you have, that my heart says that it feels nothing for you, but after a while something changes inside me and I want look into your eyes. I have always felt presence of you and I have felt you around ever since my childhood. Something ominous has never wanted to happen between us.
After all this I'm still afraid, and maybe you will wonder what? But yes, I am afraid, fear of doing things wrong, that they are not how I imagined them, but above all the fear of losing this relationship.
You may not realize, but when you talk to me about other men, or when I even see you with them, without knowing why, jealousy arrives suddenly, and I want to tell you thousands of beautiful things in front of them, but I would not achieve anything with that, and I shut up when I think it is better.
Romantic novels and movies always reminded me that if someone really loves you, shows it to you, but instead, you demonstrate the opposite, and even if you see me how a relationship of so much years. All those memorable presents I have to you, it's just a matter of time for i wake up again from this fantasy.
That is why when I looked in the sky at night gazing at the twinkling stars, I wish you clarify this that in my heart I feel, because although I am in a word of taking the next step, and again I immersed myself in a sea of confusions and meaningless thoughts.
I have tried so many times, I still don't know the little details that I have left you in the last meeting, you have told me about someone else, and you think that he is one who loves you mote than anything and while I endure how You talk beautiful about him, I have to swallow telling you that I was that person, and all for not knowing what your reaction will be.
I know that I haven't been more presentable and little introvert and maybe I do not take you out very often on romantic dates, or I have not even given you any presents in a long time, but it is only because I do not want to excite myself, yet, whenever I invite you to go out, something will happen.
It is a message of destiny or my own carelessness, I instill fear about it. It is not the time, or that that moment will never arrive, but we are still very young, and while you do not show me exactly what your heart hides, I think that what It is better to distance ourselves for a while.
I really don't think you are still there and I don't want to worry at this time. Life is very short and precious. It offers us so many opportunities that we cannot let them pass.