At different points in my life, I’ve received tons of bombs disguised as words.
However, to avoid being regarded as emotionally weak and in a bid to prove emotional maturity (to people who never cared about me in the first place), I strived to appear unhurt through each blast.
I believe that people who are very reserved or used to be can relate to this feeling.
Writing this reminds me of how a superior I once looked up to reacted to my kind gesture with belittling words in public. I remember how my eyes burned and how my mouth trembled as I unsuccessfully fought back violent teardrops that forcefully broke through my eyes.
I got angry at myself for failing to fight my tears as if I wasn't human enough to feel hurt. It took me months to forgive myself for just that.
Here’s my point darling, you don’t have to deny that your emotions exist. You don’t have to deny that you’re feeling crushed and hurt from somebody’s deliberate or unconscious verbal abuse and misdeeds. But you must not let that control your opinion of you.
You might not be able to change the way you feel at certain times but you can still do what is right and emotionally healthy despite how you feel.
Wishing you an emotionally healthy week. Your emotional stability is vital.
©BQInkspire
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