Silent blog from war zone: more about mental health

Hi, guys!

One day I decided to take a break from blogging, and today I am ready to continue my story about how we live in a military environment.

To some extent, this can be called a diary, which I keep for myself too. I have long noticed that in moments of severe stress, many events are then forgotten, so our psyche tries to protect us. It's not that I want to remember all the horrors I went through, not at all. Rather, I want all this to end as soon as possible.

I have already said that now everything is relatively good for me. But due to the fact that the country is still extremely restless, it is impossible to feel safe in any case. But at least now I've learned to distract myself. This is what I categorically failed to do for the entire first month of hostilities. I couldn't read or just do something distracted. Twenty-four hours a day I was focused on the news from the front, and nothing could distract me. Now I have learned, and of course it is very good for my mental health.

War is something that a single woman like me cannot influence. And for our psyche, situations that we absolutely cannot control are among the most stressful. Therefore, when this happens, psychologists recommend trying to leave in your life as many activities as possible from the daily routine that was before the war. It gives us a sense of control that is so lacking in military circumstances.

I hardly bring my usual routines back to life, but in some places I even create new ones. I had to wait for the system to start working, but now it is already relatively stable. Unless, of course, do not take into account my new hallucinations, caused precisely by the war. Not the most pleasant.

My attempts to pull myself together are already very old and mostly unsuccessful. At least as much as I'd like it to be. So now I just decided not to expect too much from myself and do as much as I really can now. It's not much, not much at all. Not even enough. But it's more than nothing anyway.

I'm continuing my studies in a portrait course, although I don't have anything to show yet, because I mostly do technical sketches. But that's okay, the more practice I do now, the better the result will be later when I move on to something more global.

Take care of yourself and your loved ones:)
I love you all, Inber.