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We're kindred spirits. Maybe long lost cousins or something? I've liked pretty much everything I've ever seen you say, and that's unusual for me.
I don't get along with a lot of people, either. I find a lot of people disappoint me, and I'd rather just be without them. I find it hard to locate quality people.
Thank you, that's a compliment.
Do you consider yourself a quality person?
I have doubts about myself. My husband says I am difficult and that I hold up too much of a mirror to people, which makes it tough to get along with me.
At some point in my life I changed from a rather superficial person to "too much depth". I think I have changed since I gave birth to a son. Before that I was a party girl, had many nice acquaintances, colleagues, amusements and entertainments. From about my mid-thirties, I started to want to contribute something to "improve the world".
Although these experiences, such as joining an activist group, running my own specific blog (long before crypto), changing my lifestyle, taught me a lot, probably the biggest learning effect was that I should let go of changing the world attitudes. In the meantime, I attribute this to a certain delusion of grandeur that not only afflicts the so-called elites, but also us individual people. The individual identifies too much as a political person, is busy with so many rescue scenarios that he forgets to live and is in constant fear.
Actually, I'm not really sure I want to be without these people, as you put it. I think it's more that I want to be the way I used to be. Just belonging. With an easy matter-of-factness to neither over- nor under-value coming together. But what's the point of being with people in a group if my inner judge barometer is constantly measuring along? It's like I've become incapable of just being comfortable. I really wish I had NOT forgotten how to just surf the surface. I have lost the self-evident rock-solid conviction of knowing exactly "what is right". Not only that, people have begun to frighten me who never seem to have a doubt in telling others what would be right/wrong.
I know that man is an exceedingly paradoxical being. Full of contradictions. That everything one examines always has so many facets and perspectives that it is impossible to get an absolute or definitive definition.
But maybe I'm just frustrated that I paid a certain price for having to choose one and not the other when everything was about "either, or". You have to be careful as hell not to feel like a victim. But especially not the victim of self-deception. LOL
Ultimately, I find the question of whether I am a good person impossible to answer and I don't understand how others can do it so easily. I find this question irrelevant basically because it is unanswerable. At the deep bottom of the soul there is often really nothing to be found. Nothing at all. Maybe that's the scary thing. And to accept this as something alright instead the opposite.
Taking some steps back, I think that I miss being a professional. That gave me security, topics to talk and research about, feeling confident in my work. I think, in order to overcome my discomfort with groups I may actually get used to join more instead of less.
... But then, I also seem to like it how it is. Otherwise I'd put more effort into changing it. See? Always contradicting myself. HaHa :D
That got long.
morality is more of a personal intuition than some sort of "universal target"
it's funny how everyone these days is talking breathlessly about "ai alignment"
the whole time ignoring the fact that we can't get even two people to agree on what "moral axioms" we humans should be able to agree on
If I am able to admit that I do not know myself the way I imagine I do, that's a good start. I am coming more from the perspective to take life more often from a playful manner than to insist on its seriousness. Also, to train myself in asking more questions instead of delivering rock solid answers. I must say that I tend a lot to write long texts, though. LOL!! :D
I think the reason is that I am a truly fast typer. HaHa!
the point about "asking questions" is basically a realization that "most people" won't ever accept a "new concept" unless they feel like they thought of it themselves
then it would be intelligent to give them/us the impression that they/we came up with something innovative ourselves/themselves, no? I think this can be realized through inspiration not agitation. If I have understood something which I have not understood before and I can make it appear into art or a piece of work I think that it is "my own invention".
sometimes people need a push
sometimes they don't
What does this mean? I am not familiar with this expression.
oh man, i've seen at least 20 videos talking about "ai alignment"
it's basically the idea that we need to figure out how to get "ai" to "align" with or share or at least act like it shares "human values"
the joke of course being that humans only very roughly "share values" in the first place
Thanks for the explanation.
HaHa! Right! It's very funny to get a thing aligned when I am not even aligned with myself - and as a consequence of this, not with others. LOL
right,
step one:
rigorously define "human values"