父亲的手机 Father's cell phone

It's my dad's phone, and he's been gone for five years, and I've been putting it respectfully in the top shelf of my closet. The phone was stained, but I didn't want to wipe it because it had traces of my father's use.

My father suffers from Parkinson's disease, and his fingers are not flexible. The keys of this mobile phone are too small, which is not convenient to use. He often presses the wrong number and calls others by mistake.

I said, why don't we get you a big old man phone? He always says, "No need to change, use the habit." I really thought he was used to it, and later thought, he may be distressed about money, in fact, an old man can't spend much money.

And I actually didn't change it for him.

In this world, there is a piercing regret that the child wants to be filial and the parent is not...

这是我爹生前用过的手机，爹走了五年了，这手机我一直毕恭毕敬安放在壁橱最高处。手机已污迹斑斑，但我舍不得擦拭，因为上面有我爹的使用痕迹。

我爹患有帕金森病，手指不灵活，这个手机按键偏小，使用起来并不方便，经常按错了号码，错打给别人，后来爹想了个办法，用一支圆珠笔代替手指按键。

我说，给你换个大的老人机吧？他每次都说，不用换，用这个习惯了。我就真的以为他是习惯了，后来想，他或许是心疼钱，其实一个老人机花不了多少钱。

而我，竟然真的没给他换。

这世上有一种锥心刺骨的遗憾是：子欲孝而亲不在……

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