I am so glad to hear that you are on the road to recovery.
Your reflection is powerful and shows the complexity of reconciling our beliefs with life-changing experiences.
Sometimes life takes us down paths that challenge everything we thought we knew, like what you say about the healthcare system. It is inspiring to see how you find gratitude in the midst of it all.
The world can be complicated, but your story shows that even in an imperfect system, there are reasons to be thankful. I totally agree when you say that "nothing is free" because someone has to pay for it, and maybe they don't even know they are paying yet.
May you continue to get better and find peace in every beat of your renewed heart.