Gambling is just a giver of hope

okay guys, we meet again here and on this occasion I will discuss a bit of a bitter experience that I experienced, so I started playing online gambling in 2014 until now and the average money I spend is equal to my salary but what makes me wonder if it's for gambling Even if we owe the important thing is there because it may be addicted,I've been wanting to stop for a long time as if I can't because when there's a lot of power balls you can miss it even if it's a small bet,and the bitter experience that I felt the most in 2016 was debt everywhere at home, I didn't dare to go home again. I slept in the forest for 2 days until my girlfriend picked me up and gave me food and told me to go home, talk nicely to my family. I wanted to stop and promised to change, even if it only changed. 1 week only,and I placed a bet even though it was small and the answer was predictable, I lost again but I wonder why it didn't deter me.

for this month alone I've spent three million two hundred thousand rupiah even though it's just a small bet, so basically for those who have never played don't ever try because this gambling doesn't give me a win because I don't play gambling, maybe I can get a car or build a house instead like now I can only ride a dirty motorbike,there are often questions from friends whether I have won playing soccer gambling and my answer has been but the money we get we will bring back tomorrow and play again so it is the same as never winning, no matter how big the victory is if the money we get is not easy will last a long time because we will spend a lot of time without thinking about it, of course it is very different from the money we work hard for.Thank you, I hope my dark experience can be a lesson for all of us.