You knew me being a survivor and many times I cried. How many times I promise not to be sad but yesterday, weaknesses was playing my mind. It totally ruined my focus and got a huge headache and heartbreak. Pain is just a part of our life and there are so many way how to handle everything. It is normal that the rain is pouring when the cloud is already dark. When our feeling is already too heavy, cry it out to lessen the shortness of breathing.
Look at my eyes, you can see the pain but if I didn't cry, the pain was inside my heart.
I was so grateful that the teardrops vanished away those part of the pain. It washed away my fears and eased a little the heartbreak.
Slowly I recovered my strength after crying.
You see me crying because it is the weak side of me. I cried and learned a lesson from it and it made me a better version of myself. One day, I will have the best smile for you and proud to say that I am a survivor. Yes , the bottom line of today is that I survived! The darkness of my feeling turned out into the brightness side of my day. Some of us do not like to cry but it is so dangerous act because it will create illness to our heart. Like my grandfather, during the wake of his younger brother, he never shed tears, he kept on his silence in the graveyard. When they went home, still he was on his silence. They saw him in pain for the death of his younger brother. Early night, they slept beside my grandmother and uncle. They had a peaceful sleep in the house of his brother's house. In the morning, when the rooster cocked, my grandmother woke him up so they will go home earlier to feed the chicken and pig. But my grandfather was already cold. It means, he was died at night when they were all tired sleeping after the burial of his brother. That is why? I cried to my last tears when I am not feeling well until it subsides.
At this time, I just woke up and have a better feeling compared to the other day. I thank God for His guidance and He answers my longing.
That's all for today! Stay Tune!
I've been through a lot that even an anesthesia-induced paranoia for several days, tripping over people in the hospital trying to kill me, made me to believe that I am trapped in the hospital to supposedly tortured, people all around talking about me, the nurses, fellow patients in the ward, the hospital guards and that paranoia trip that China invaded PH by nuclear strikes didn't made me cry but the fright was real, damn anesthesia made suffer from hallucinations and outright paranoia was more like a Twilight Zone episode/movie, pure terror which I experienced in NKTI ward last April.
Now I believe that my heart had been numb a lot because of my life which is what I can put as nightmarish that I cannot cry anymore.
Sorry for that much my dear and I feel so bad now I cried a lot. Supposed to be i should be happy for the good health I have. God bless and hheal the pain in you. I remember by friend @mermaidvampire talked how strong you are and last June, she died.
Dear Olivia, I'm sorry for what you're feeling right now, and I understand because feeling alone is not an easy situation, but feeling like you're desolate is even worse. I am sure that you are a woman with great qualities and beautiful, who is just going through a difficult time and that you will soon be better.
There is one thing that I have learned throughout my life, that when we feel alone it is important to let off steam, so for me crying is like the valve of the heart that allows us to release, but we must consider something important and that is that even sadness has a time. limit and that will depend on your own willpower, in other words we can cry and let all that energy flow, but it is also necessary to set a time and say this far, perhaps it may be a little incredible, but when we make the decision I assure you that works.
Going out in the sun also helps, because vitamin D increases energy levels, eat healthy even if you are not hungry you have to eat to stay strong.
Another thing I learned is that by writing you also release, just as you do now, as well as singing and you sing very beautifully, I have seen you, so if you dare to make another video, tag me and maybe we will organize a singing contest Christmas or music that inspires positive energy here at Blurt, if you like the idea, we could implement them together and I will support you with Blurt coins for the prize.
I sincerely hope that you can feel better and raise your vibration towards the tranquility and joy of seeing a new day with beautiful colors.
At Blurt we do not want you to feel alone, because here it makes us happy to know that our friends feel good, and if not, let them know that here we can read you and that you are not invisible to us but that you are part of our great family of Blurt friends .
I share a huge hug with you and I hope you give me a smile, that helps tell your brain that soon everything will be fine.
Good vibes.
A big hug dear Olivia
Dear friend @oneray , I invite you to meet Olivia
And the crow said to the girl: It will not always rain.
Even though the day may be very gloomy, full of black clouds about to let their tears fall, behind those clouds the sun waits patiently to once again illuminate and give life to everything it touches with its rays.
It will not always rain in our lives... the sun waits for us to warm us and allow us to see with our own eyes that we have an infinite universe of possibilities to move forward.
This will surely make the pain disappear, and you will rise again like the Phoenix.