I Always Pray That My Parents Would Be Protected From The Pandemic

I am contemplating if one of my parents even would get sick from CoViD then that would be so devastating for me. I am almost too dependent to them physically. So I am praying for God to also improve my physical body more to at least make me walk with not much pain anymore.

I already am having some improvements regarding my bones and joints but it is in no near where I can go back in my normal mobility functions.

It just is too depressing but no matter what happens I just have to stay strong with my inner-self because no one around will help me other than my family. As for my relatives I do not think that they will take me in and even if they are willing I really do not want to be a burden considering my condition which is not only hard to manage but also an expensive one too.

The only consolation if somebody will take me in is that I can't much food, I only am eating like a cockroach because of my long-standing appetiteloss issue but other than that I am a deadweight drag to anyone.

At least for now I am not a burden financially because i can still earn a bit and if I lose this ability then I can see a dark fate ahead already. At that point it will be a very bad situation that I could not even think about it, it is one of my fears in life which is why during this course of my fight I had always been trying to evade death by trying to keep myself afloat.

Fortunately the steem community had been a great help particularly the Madamme in the other platform which is really showing her love all these times no matter what. I always thank you Ma'am and my prayers is also with you and your lovedones and now with my friends here at #blurt which had came at this right moment in my online life because of the oppression from the other platform as if God is really working for me in that regard, it is just truly amazing.

I am trying my dear best to stand on my ground and tackle these seemingly impossible obstacles in my way, to try to make my health issues improved and trying to inch towards the best that I can achieve with the mercy of God.

II just have to mentally compose myself because not all things are permanent and there are uglier possibilities that could happen again on top of these mess that I am trying to sort out from.

I know that I have to keep my inner strength solid because of what could happen and I have to just trust God in what he can do or what he is planning but right now I am praying the protection of my parents from sickness of all sorts because they are a big chunk of my life already even though sometimes they are an obstacle themselves too for my plans, I just still wanted for them to be around many years after my time and achieve more happiness that they deserve without me in their lives anymore and making use of the cryptos (maybe) that I had left behind and enjoy it for the rest of their lives.

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