Tomorrow is my dialysis again, it both feels like days comes fast and yet quite too long for me to wait for my next session. It is because after a day or so I am already feeling not good because of the toxin build-up in my body particularly when I would take my Cinacalcet then it will be like a survival mode again for me.
I hope that soon I will be much more financially free so that I can afford for a more frequent dialysis sessions. It is because even though my health insurance covers for most of my dialysis allocations the hospital bill was the factor in preventing me to go for a three times weekly dialysis sessions.
But if I would be more financially free I will be able to hire someone to drive and take care of me as well and free my parents for ever having to care for my sake.
I am thankful that as of the current moment I am not that financially reliant on my relatives about the expenses and bills that I needed to cover and that is what I am thankful about God because even though I am almost totally disabled I can still sustain my needs and not be a burden about that matter unlike other dialysis patients which have no means of income particularly now that it is the pandemic and it is hard to move around and do business even though we can sell online using Facebook and other online selling sites.
I will just have to do what I was doing from the last few years which is to enjoy writing and telling stories about my life because that is just what I can do for now. It is just better than not doing anything at all or being idle and I just regard this kind of "work" as a gift from God because it just makes me not think about my health condition which is what I needed to do in order to not get mentally down about it.
