So I remember before the first time I made a post on personal responsibility, self-discovery, awareness, and self-development, it was hell, yes it was.
Fear finished me, I battled with those thoughts of inadequacies for months, and in fact years. The amazing thing is that you're the one speaking to yourself and concluding the reasons you can't step out and doubt what you ought to do.
The battle was so fierce that I summoned the courage to make a post in 2018 but the fear of inadequacy sent me back.
Do you know why? Nobody responded to the post, with a comment or liked it. This sent me back to my cocoon of fear of approval.
I said to myself those fears have been confirmed. I give up and continue with my life after all who cares.
I continued developing myself though unintentionally but virtues were being deposited in me begging for expression through writing and speaking but my fears won't allow me.
Unknown to me that while I am taking time to come out of my fears and comfort zone, lives were dependent on who I was growing to become. Of course, this is denying the world your credibility, authenticity, and originality.
My deliverance came when I left for the compulsory national youth service in 2019, leadership came calling, it always finds a way to catch up with me.
A leopard cannot hide its spot, in this case, what God has kept inside of me could hide but to express itself.
After representing my CDS group for months, a lady in my group walked up to me and said I should be doing something after she went through my writings and quotes in my jotter she pipped. She said in her words, that people's lives are dependent on it if you don't start no matter how small.
My deliverance came instantly. I picked myself up immediately and affirmed to myself that I don't care what people think or say, I will start doing what I am supposed to do whether there are likes, comments, or shares.
Here I am today doing what gives me joy helping people know the truth of life taking responsibility for their lives.
Your story might be different but one thing is common to us, we all have the fear of starting out considering the factors around us.
Those factors are not true, there might be the fact but there is no truth about who you are and what you can do.
The easiest way out of the fear of starting is by stepping out. It is only when you step out that you can stand out. I might not be as popular as people may think but people know me for something.
Make the mistakes, I have made a couple of them starting but the beauty of it is that you're better than when you started.
