Zhang Jufen, born in 1953, was a student at Shanghai Hetian Middle School. In 1969, Zhang Jufang, along with her classmates, responded to the national call for "educated youth go and work in the countryside and mountainous areas" and went to a certain place in Heilongjiang Province to participate in production and construction.
When she went to Heilongjiang, Zhang Jufang was already pregnant. Around the Spring Festival in 1970, Zhang Jufang gave birth to a girl. In that era, getting pregnant before marriage was seen as a taboo, so Zhang Jufen had to give the girl she gave birth to to a family in the production team to raise her, and the child was named Zhang Shufeng.
Zhang Shufeng gradually learned about her background as she grew up. In 2004, she went to Shanghai to look for her mother, but unfortunately couldn't find her.
In 2012, Zhang Shufeng saw a Looking for Relatives program called "You Have a Letter" on Shenzhen TV and used the program team to look for her mother. The program team found a classmate of Zhang Jufen in the middle school and confirmed that she went to Heilongjiang with a big belly and was already pregnant. The program team found Mr. Zhang, the younger brother of Zhang Jufen. At the broadcast, Mr. Zhang took out a photo of Zhang Jufen when she was a child, which looked very similar to the photo of Zhang Shufeng when she was a child. The things Zhang Shufeng said are also very consistent, it should be finding the right person. Mr. Zhang said that his sister passed away due to illness in 2006, and he had never heard her mention that she had a daughter before. Just before she got sick, she said she wanted to go to Heilongjiang to see her friends there, but it never happened. Looking back now, they thought she wanted to see her daughter who was abandoned there.
Having an illegitimate daughter is not a glorious thing. She kept it a secret from her family during her lifetime, which is understandable.
Zhang Shufeng said that looking for her mother was like finding a needle in a haystack. But if her mother wanted to find her, it should be easy. She didn't understand why her mother hadn't been looking for her yet?
Zhang Shufeng finally made a request to visit her mother’s grave. But her uncle refused, he was worried about what his brother-in-law's family would think if they found out?
Zhang Shufeng cried bitterly, having no relatives except for her husband and children in the world. Now, there is no opportunity to even worship her mother.
Zhang Shufeng is unfortunate and the biggest victim in the story, but isn't her mother also a victim? Where is the man who caused this tragedy, Zhang Shufeng's father? From beginning to end, there was no trace of him.
This is a tragedy with the imprint of the times, but more importantly, it is due to personal reasons.
The writer Liu Qing once said that although the road of life is long, there are often only a few crucial steps, especially when one is young.
张菊芬，生于1953年，曾是上海和田中学的学生。1969年，张菊芳同她同学一道，响应国家“知识青年上山下乡”的号召，去了黑龙江省某地参加生产建设。
去黑龙江时，张菊芳已怀有身孕。1970年春节前后，张菊芳生下一女孩。在那个年代，未婚先孕被视为有伤风化的事情，张菊芬只好把生下的女孩子送给了生产队里的一户人家抚养，孩子被取名为张淑凤。
张淑凤长大后渐渐知道了自己的身世，2004年，她去了上海寻找她的母亲，可惜未能找到。
2012年，张淑凤看到深圳卫视有一档寻亲节目《你有一封信》，便通过栏目组来寻找她的母亲。栏目组找到了张菊芬当年的一个同学，证实她去黑龙江时挺着大肚子，已经怀孕了。栏目组找到了张菊芬的弟弟张先生，在播出现场，张先生拿出了张菊芬小时的照片，和张淑凤小时的照片很是相象。张淑凤说的几个事情也很是吻合，应该就是找对了人。可张先生说，他的姐姐已在2006年因病去世了，此前一直未听她说起她还有个女儿的事情。只是在她得病前，说是要到黑龙江去看一下她那里的朋友，可一直未成行。现在想来，应该是想看一下留在那里的女儿吧。
有个私生女，这不是一件光彩的事，生前一直瞒着家人，这也可以理解。
张淑凤说，她去寻找自己的母亲，如同大海捞针。可她的母亲如果去找她，应该很容易。她不理解，她的母亲为何一直没有找她呢？
张淑凤最后提了一个请求，要去拜祭一下她的母亲。可她的舅舅拒绝了，他担心姐夫一家人知道后会怎样想呢？
张淑凤痛哭流涕，除了丈夫和子女，她没有任何的亲人了。现在，连祭拜母亲的机会也没有了。
张淑凤是不幸的，是故事中最大的受害者，可她的母亲不也是一个受害者吗？张淑凤的父亲，那个造成这场悲剧的那个男人哪去了？自始至终，都没有他的影子。
这是一场悲剧，有时代的烙印，但更多的是个人的缘由。
作家柳青曾说过，人生的道路虽然漫长，但紧要处常常只有几步，特别是当人年轻的时候。
