Some feelings are not unknown to me. Anxiety is one of those ! !
It’s not that difficult to remember what anxiety feels like when I am not anxious. I know it’s bad. I know it’s terrifying. I know it sucks life out of meeh!. I remember anxiety, but it’s different to be anxious again. It’s the difference between seeing your favourite cake on shelf and actually eating it. Tasting it again. Feeling it.! !
At first, When Anxiety knocks on my door, I immediately close the windows and tighten all my locks. I switch off all the lights of my house, eliminating even the smallest possibilities of encounter. All thoughts. All fears. Every doubt. I try to wash everything on my body with a soap. I take a long hot shower, wear the best of my clothes, and make my bed for a good good sleep.!
But, when I lie down, Anxiety seeps in from the spaces in between my doors, and my windows. Before I know it, Anxiety takes over my full body, and it becomes a part of every inch of my existence. Anxiety becomes who iam..!.. I become what anxiety feels like.! !
Anxiety is visible. You can see it. You can feel it. On my face. On my feet. In my eyes. In my breath. You know it.!!
Even when I am alone, with anxiety I feel like I am in a room full of people who are judging me for every movement of my body, I feel like they’re all gradually leaving the room because I breathe, I feel like someone’s watching me.!!
I am so scared, so unbelievably scared. People think they don’t know what’s going on with me, but they know. You always know what it feels like to be in a dark space where you feel there’s no hope, no love left in the world for you. Everyone’s fighting a battle and you can see that. We all have mutual feelings. We all are pretty sensitive at the end of the day.! !❤🔥