It has been some time, there's a cold in my brain. Confused about what I should write next. There are numerous thoughts and emotions urging me to write, but I am unsure of where or how to begin. Even though a portrait of something is on my mind. Hence, I'm confused. Let me just start it about this evening. It just feels amazing even though I have mixed emotions. "Loneliness and happiness."
An occupied heart is sometimes emptied. Even though you already know there's no justification to be sad. It suddenly came, just like when you don't understand why one door suddenly opened or suddenly closed. Just like when you were very happy then abruptly a teary-eyed happening from the past appeared. Similarly, it is like experiencing a sudden surge of sadness when reminiscing about a tearful event from the past, disrupting a previously joyous state. Yes, we can not predict things to happen in life. That's why, life may be hard or unfair, either way, life is still interesting.
Have you tried that, I'm sure we all did. You seated, and did nothing but watch the fantastical scenery. Missing something or someone, again, occurred. You settled down and simply observed the awe-inspiring landscape. The feeling of longing for something or someone arose once more. You can not help it when that happens. We have a playful mind that loves to trick us and sometimes fool us.
Still, as long as we desire to live there is always a room for happiness. There should be because that is the only reason why we battle all the challenges in order for us to overcome them. There were even sacrifices but it's alright, there are things we can not have both. I mean, you can not shout while talking to someone near you. A common intellect is how we should treat someone if we want to be treated what we want.
Have you noticed? What am I referring to? The night, this evening looks like it has a starry sky. It feels just awesome under a peaceful and clear sky. The chilly feeling when the wind blows raises the mood to have a lovely one. I don't care if I stay alone, I don't need someone to talk to anyway. I'm good as I am right now, enjoying this evening by myself. Letting the emotions flow to make me feel better and better as I kill my time with the night. Happy or sad, I feel both but still I'm okay with it. I emptied my mind and let things come to mind.
Thank you for reading