It's not fun with this living like a hermit situation that I am dealing with

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It was hot today, I said to myself it is great because I will just sleep it off because it really is uncomfortable having that heat radiating from the corrugated steel roof baking everything down in my room.

But this radiating heat also has a relaxing effect on my body for some reason and I get to be in a more relaxed mode and making me a bit drowsy. I would then just turn unto my usual sleeping position preference, ask my mother to close the door, and set myself into a slumber.

Fortunately I can fall to sleep much easier compared to when I am waterlogged years ago and that contributes a lot for my overall well-being in that regard. But of course my time is in some way wasted considering that I slept like it was a night time rest and that is something that I am sad about, having to let days go by so easy considering that I/we only have a limited time here on earth.

The only good thing for me when sleeping in a hot day is that I would release some toxins out which is why after "getting up' I would feel the salt crystals on my skin and clean it off with alcohol in tissue paper. The t-shirt and the towel below it under my back or sides will also get soaked in perspiration which my mother would replace if when I happen to use the bathroom and after going back I had the cover newly replaced.

This is what I do during these times when it is hot because I can't go to a resort to have some relaxing time, I can't go anywhere to take some fresh air, I can't even wander around the house because we do not have a place here where I can be more comfortable. I am like a prisoner where I am now limited for what I can do. It is a sad situation and I must have a more positive outlook for my life otherwise it will do any good for me menatally.