Sometimes I feel I am too rigid with certain things in life and my hubby also gets annoyed with me on that. I do have some OCD behaviors' which I try to be mindful about but still it takes on me. I have this freakiness of cleanliness and putting things in place exactly as they are meant to be. Anything moving an inch here or their kind of bothers me and unless I do not set it right again, I keep feeling restless.
No matter however busy the day is or whatever is going on in the day, my one eye is always on the order at home and I keep tracking that whether it's the living area, kitchen or bedroom or any space of my home. At all times I want all things in place. There are times when I mindfully stop myself and let things be the way they are.
The problem is that this habit has been hard on me now. Since past many years me and hubby have been living alone and I have set things my way in the house. When anyone visits my home to stay with me, I do politely tell them about my behavior and the way I would wish things to be at home. But I know that's not right.
I try not to look at the guest bedroom when they are there else, I would start jumping on my 2 feet. Not everyone likes the type of order I maintain and that's perfectly fine. Leaving things here and there is something I cannot tolerate. My hubby gives me a warning not to venture his space...hehehe. He is the one most disorganized and very opposite to me and my Son too. I am always moving behind them to get things back in order and sometimes I see they do it purposely to annoy me.
Morning when I wake up immediately, I want to do my bed before doing anything and if I have to step out I make sure that everything is in place and completed before I step out. It does take away some energy from me but then it also gives me some sense of satisfaction. May be not a very healthy one but it is like this sugar energy which gives the kick and makes one feel good. When my friends visit me, they also make fun of me saying; Do I ever use anything in my home, because it is just the way it is all the time, never moved a bit here and there. When I come home from any travels, I immediately want to empty all the bags and put things in their place. No matter however tired I am, but I need to do it, else I will not be able to sleep.
I will not say these are self-destructive behavior but yes they are surely not very healthy. Because I stay alone there is no hassle with it, but any time if ever I have to stay with someone else then it surely is a problem. I have managed myself so far with it and I am hopeful that in future also I will manage myself with this disorder in me.
Do you have any OCD behavior's that you would want to share?
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you are not alone. my parents visited us last month. as soon as they arrived, I started giving instructions
these are just few 😂
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