The demon that bothered me the most is a little hurt scared boy , first noticed him when i was 6 to 7 ,. The little boy about 3 ,.. he gave me terrible nightmares of his memory's unknown to me and some terrifying realistic views on destruction by war or nature . Me , 7 years old didn't want this shit ,. told him to bugger of . Witch he did , and i finally had good nights of sleep again .
At 11 i got an life changing operation ,. to lower my blood pressure so i could live beyond 30 and on . It made me from living mostly in the subconscious world see and understand the conscious world a lot better , a whole lot better i must say . While staying aware of this subconscious world to .
So when the little demon returned at 12/13 and messed up my social skills by making me extremely shy and afraid of strangers , i had a good talk with him .
Told him to stop buggering around and grow up , that what happened to us had to be , and was not done by evil or hate , it where pure medical things that had to be done to keep us alive and grant us a longer life . Let's take that gift , and move on . Focus on your skills and loose the fear . Also told him that i was sorry for abandoning him some years back , my awareness was just not there yet , and that i loved him .
worked out great , for his skills are defensive reaction speed and focus on survival ( fended of 5 adults effectively at (me)age 6 when trying to take a blood sample ) . I agreed to let him train his skills by driving all kinds of products that need steering and control . Video-games included , all breaks off , just let the little boy go , to train his skills and keep them up , for in virtual reality damage is not real . Happy little boy and no harm done .
On the other side it's very good to have him hang around , watch a bit over you and make you jump in action to get in safety when accidents happen around you . I can say , my love for him saved my live many times .
By now the little bot grew up a lot , we stopped measuring in age , we respect each others skills and may one day become one .
Still those nightmare visions given and seen ,. about world destruction ?
The demon has no memory on those bit's , or knowledge that he produced them in me . It might be because he is not a demon anymore .
(I should fucking post this shit and earn some)
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An excellent and insightful examination of 'the self', my friend !
Merely touching the surface my friend ,.. for i encountered demons that could devour ones soul in one breath , the just didn't bother me that long , they mostly fled after finding out my soul could assimilate them and use there skills for the good . Make them my servants .
Excellent post , deserves a matching comment .
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