Toda I think a second chip came off my bottom right wisdom tooth. It needs to be extracted, I need at least two other teeth filled and all of my wisdom teeth extracted.
I am doing my best to try and stay on the level, but I am struggling intensely with depression lately.
Since the start of the lockdown in March my mental state has been steadily declining. For the last week of July I was constantly trying and with this tooth the blackness is suffocating me again.
I am being supported with the obligation to work for the money but it hasn't been enough to get an apartment.
I don't even know what to write about it. I can't say I don't appreciate the help but it is corroding my sense of well being with this tooth falling apart and being unable to afford anything but a bed at the cheapest hostel I have stayed in since 2013.
And just as I was feeling pain from that tooth while eating a kebab for dinner {also very cheap, 2.5 euro, a seagull blew past me and swiped a big chunk from the top of the kebab.
I don't know what to do except tell the story. I am acutely aware that everyone is in trouble these days
I am not suicidal, I managed to confront that back in 2004 and then 3 years later, thanks to a friend reacted about Lugol's iodine, which corrected the imbalance and stabilised my mood and stopped the severe depression, and enabled me to get my alcohol consumption under control.
I have been very lucky with my teeth, as a child I was a dribbler, and the excessive saliva production continues to this day and has saved me from having to deal with it, and I live in a country now with very good but cheap dentists.
But if this tooth gets infected I will have to eat her blow my budget and stare down almost certain grinding poverty for the last week of the month, of buy pliers and try to yank it myself.
To try and stave it off a little longer I finally am brushing 2x a day, and with a second piece gone, I am going to gargle with salt water and iodine tincture. Hopefully I can keep the infection at bay and by 2 months time finally get the apartment and see a dentist.
But it is nerve wracking, knowing the danger looms, both another bout of eating polenta and the threat of a severe pain in my mouth.
I have a breach to leap over, and I don't know when I have to take the leap and I don't want to get it wrong, and miss the other side and fall in a hole again.
I need luck, or help. Hopefully I manage to find both before too long.
Well I can understand your depression because I was an immigrant and was student here in Ukraine. But somehow I managed my documents and now I am out of stress a little bit. I can understand the depression completely and sometimes I used to feel I should die. So many problems, money issue, documents issue plus tuition fees just made me frustrated... All I wanna say, keep patience and don't let depression to shallow you... Always be positive ...
Wisdom tooth is painful and I have one which creates problem often... Try to take painkiller and hot water... It will reduce your pain especially warm salt water gargel...
I use a few drops of iodine with salt, it kills all the things. I hopefully can get access to my Serbian bank which has been paid about 240eur/month. For sure I will get 240, possibly my friend can get the other payment in the special account, then for sure finally I move out of the hostel and into an apartment. I came to Varna because the rent is almost half in Sofia
Yeah, it's weird, if you come from a richer country they call you an 'expat' and not an immigrant these days. But I came from the lowest tier of society in Australia. I have had some pretty bad luck over the years but also some absolutely spirit-brightening experiences as well, in times especially that were otherwise the worst of all. Like watching the sunset/moonrise in eastern Serbia right on the dot of a full and super-moon.