My dear Chriddi,
I'm sorry about the illness in your family. When someone I love is ill, that is all-consuming. I'll share with you here that in my childhood there was much illness, tragic illness. Not me, two of my brothers. So I am not reasonable when the health of loved ones is threatened.
I hope you find peace. Spend time with Max and your other furry buddies. I find these sweet four-legged friends are the best tonic, even when reason leaves me :))
With warmest greetings,
Your stalker from across the sea
AG