Yesterday evening I had managed to get some progress done on my backlog cases and then I figured what that extremely uncomfortable feeling that I've been trying to avoid the most is.. turns out, simply shame, but I've been running from it like a wildfire. And there I thought I struggled with anger or fear the most. No. Shame. Clear and simple.
Then I spent the whole evening being totally honest with myself and mentally listing all the things I felt shame for, around and about.
I do believe this was a direct consequence of that mental exercise but this morning I woke up with so much energy and hype I was ready to move mountains.
And move mountains I did! So by now I do feel that well deserved heavy tiredness after a good days work.
Psychiatrists might call it mania that I felt coming on this morning, I just call it my full self embodied and my modus operandi in those instances is to strive to get Perfect! xD At everything. At once! (No matter now far from that goal I'd initially start with). It is silly, I know, but I like it. And thus I don't really have to worry about myself getting manic, as the only consequence is me finally adressing everything I have been neglecting and actually take good care of myself. The only thing I have to be mindful of is the inevitable coming down from that high and ensuring it's as smooth as physically possible and not a literal crash landing.
But that's that!
And how was your day?
~Josie~
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