Death

A hole in my heart I can’t feel. A peace that has moved away and I don’t know when it escaped. This feeling is always but we never seem to get used to it. The sorrow of my heart is worrying me. I wish I could ask why but I’m no one to ask that question. I only have to mourn now and wait for the day they will mourn me too. I don’t wish to say what so soon but it’s too soon that I can’t hold my eyes.
Silence is killing me. No birds chirping. The wind is quiet. No trees moving. A day like this brings suspicions. As I begin to wonder, then the news got to me. When my father went that was how I received the message. A message without any sender. When my mother was going the same message but in a different format. Everyone will leave but the people who stay are those who receive the message. When will those who live receive my message? I only hope I would have lived well before that message is delivered to my loved ones.

We mourn with tears yet we can’t reflect on the day we will leave too. We walk with pride yet forget a day will come when that leg can’t move. We speak ignorantly and arrogantly forgetting a day will come when our means to the grave is by the people we never respected. We skipped prayers forgetting a day will come when we will meet the one who created us. We celebrate parties without being cautious of the day no one at the party will ask why we aren’t there with them today. Why don’t we live with people who will be with us even the day we lie down without benefit to the world?

Are we ready for a day we will lie without talking? Are we ready for the day the world will keep moving even without you? Are you ready for the day even those who depended on you will still live without you. Are you ready for the day you will look at people, and speak to them yet they can’t hear you? Have you ever wondered how you will be ready when that day comes to you in reality? Until then will we live as we are travelers?

I mourn today. I might mourn another day too. But I know they will mourn me one day too. I wish I will be ready when the knock comes on my day.