## How i handled the bully as a teen .

When i was a teen friends had a nick phrase for me .
But lets first put on the music from that time that gave inspiration for my given nick .

Tears for Fears , where my friends put my last name , witch differ but few letters from tears or fears , first at the place of Tears and in a second line in the place of Fears .

Name for Fears
Tears for Name

I was a skinny guy , lucky to have survived the first 11 years of my life . Not of any importance what had caused that in relation to this topic , so ill leave it at that . Just know i was not that strong build .
Witch made me a target for bully's , as they mostly pick a target weaker then themselves , for the bully wants to score a win in the eyes of the crowd . It is all about social order and control , everybody wants to rule the world .

But where other victims of bully's bowed down to the verbal bullying , following orders and stayed in a kind of victim state , down below in the social order around the dictator narcissist bully , i did not . I refused to follow anyone's social picking order under verbal force . Voluntary or not , where the only options i knew .
So i mocked them , first friendly and joking some truths back on the bully's thinking , and if the bully got more meaner , straight out me did bullying verbally back .

What i learned is that not all bully's are evil cunt's , for some got the humor , along with the crowd , and accepted me as me around or even became my friend , and some even changed there ways .

Some that went beyond verbally , looking for a fight , having the victim attack them , clearly visible for the crowd . True mean punches and kicks while the crowd is not looking . Where again the victims that survived the verbal attacks mostly gave in and bowed down to the senseless dictators rules . I did not , i endured it and stayed in the crowds eyes whit the bully around , keeping it at words .

Pissing the bully of for not getting violent on him while mocking him in public . The one looking for the fight will attack first , a word said wrong is the final trigger , words that the bully will take for justice in the eyes of the crowd to attack first . Insulting the bully's mother i found was such trigger often . I wonder why ? mammy's boys ?

Now i was not strong build , but that said more about visual appearance then if i had strength . I could jump high , kick hard , and run fast . At the bulls first run at me , i would hit as hard as i could ( chest or head was my aim , not the nuts ,.. i have some decency , com'n ,. man don't kick nuts of other man ) , jumped out of the way and ran like hell . There is no need to get hammered by a angry bull .

And there is humor for the crowd to see a raging bull without a target to rage on .

As you notice i wrote about male bully's , but for girl-female bully's my principles stay the same , i just changed the kick and run tactic in to just a slap with open hand on the cheek , and stand my ground .

Female's have there own way of bullying , a whole different story , where i can only say , the females seem to bully the males less . As in my experience i have but 2 or 3 encounters with female bullying towards me . And only ones i had to slap a cheek , but in my defense , she was 15kg more then me and taller to , i took two hard punches to the head , before i replied with a slap on face side . It did the trick , she ended up in a hysterical tantrum witch made evading , jumping aside , from other raging bull run's a easy task .

Witch again can be watched as funny by the crowd , the crowd where many are in denial of being in some sort of victim state by the bully his control on social order , thinking that the bully is there friend . Deceived in seeing his/her enemy's , her/his demons . fooled by someones fantasy .
Where humor helps in entertaining the truth for the crowd to see , mirror , think and find answers . But what ever you do , don't bow down , but laugh with the mockers , not against them over shallow answers from hollow minds .

We all have bin bullied , we all have bullied , there are no saints , we all want to rule the world at times .
Where i am sometimes to eager on getting the bully to show , and sometimes used dirty tricks on innocent others to get reaction from the bully , just to get it over and done , for peace to return in the social order .
It's my only sin , and i should not , so sorry to all i ever hurt ,.. it was in self-defense and for peace . I will have to consider the ethics and morals of such actions , weight there value against the honest questions asked by me .
One day i might learn , don't kill the bait fish before the big fish is hooked . That is not fair game no matter how honest the words said where meant .

This was me as a teen , this was about what ever you might find in it , may it shed some light for others , targets and bullies the like , it's about the message , and may i end saying ,..
We should not worship the golden bull .
Instead find harmony and peace among us .

Let's refuse victim-hood , and grow up a bit .
Stand our grounds , no matter how ugly the attack might seem .
A good weekend to all . ;-)

Links : youtube
Phote : my own .