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Yesterday I had absolutely no progress writing. sucks. I was tired and finally fell asleep. Even though 10 pm is my schedule to work on a novel.

In the morning I work to move the sand from the back of the house to the kitchen. Yes, our family kitchen is being demolished for renovation. The building is made wider but unfortunately, the floor has holes.

It took some grit to cover up the holes to make it into the floor. Lots of ground sand. And I got to hoe the sand and send it to the kitchen.

I do not write. I hated myself yesterday for not writing (I'm better now. Don't really care about yesterday). Now I'm thinking about how to prevent the incident of 'no writing from happening again'.

Morning?

I had time to change the clock to write. Sometimes getting used to it at night. The most comfortable for me is midnight until dawn. I can concentrate more and calm down when I write.

But I also had time to change my writing time in the morning. So that my day can be free from the "writing target" that I make every day. I also had time to change it during the day, evening, and so on.

I'm still confused about my writing hours that match.

Or? Actually, it's not about hours of writing but readiness? Actually, I'm not ready to write? Because of every writing schedule, sometimes I postpone it first so as not to rush. A kind of little escape.

Unresolved Issues. But I'm Still Grateful

Whatever is happening to me. Although I haven't been able to solve this problem yet. I am still grateful because I can still continue my activities. Still able to keep writing and keep moving towards becoming a novelist.

I'm still training myself to be a novelist. I'm still excited to continue writing. I thank God for all the gifts given to me so that I can still continue this small desire.

I express the deepest gratitude from my heart. I do not expect and will not speculate how I will be in the future. I just need to focus on doing what can be done today.