In the afternoon, everyone is sitting at Mahesh Chowdhury's house to eat cake. Tears welled up in her mother's eyes as she watched Bibhuti's eagerness to eat. After her son returned home, Bibhuti's mother now prepares only a variety of food. Bibhuti can't eat, her stomach gets full after eating a little. He is not satisfied with the greed of eating like a famine victim. Seeing his gaze, it seems that Madhavilata. Suddenly Shihria got up and gave him a shake of the head.
Everyone is sitting in a crescent shape on the wide porch inside, for the convenience of facing each other. Sometimes it takes two hours to finish the afternoon snack. This time the state is discussed. There was not much talk today. Except Mahesh Chowdhury, everyone is feeling more or less uncomfortable in the morning incident.
Suddenly Bibhuti said, well dad, are you crazy?
Mahesh Chowdhury laughed and said, I was watching who was talking earlier. It felt crazy. Yours, no? Why? There’s no consistency between crazy words, work, anything, me
So I didn't say anything out of the ordinary, I didn't do anything.
Didn't you say? Didn't you?
No. I never talk nonsense, I don't work out. Sometimes mistakes can be made, that's all.
I have never seen such arrogance! You are making yourself almost a great man.
Mahesh Chowdhury shook his head, I didn't do that, I told a straight truth. I know why you feel arrogant? When I talk to you, I remember that you are my son, but when you judge me, you forget that I am your father. If I had said the word to the Lord in a different way, you would have been angry at my humility, then he would have noticed that I was your father, and seeing your father's self-esteem, lack of knowledge, you would have bowed your head in shame and humiliation.
Madhavilata has never heard Mahesh Chowdhury say this. He stared at Mahesh Chowdhury's playful face with a little surprise.
Mahesh Chowdhury said again, do you know what self-esteem means? Empty pride, Guatumi. Your self-esteem will not survive without clashing with people, you will have to clash with personality, if necessary, there will be clashes in public, you will get up to hit with sticks, but your self-esteem will remain strong. Isn't that what Madhu says?
Madhavilata's mouth was full, she was ashamed to speak because she swallowed the food.
Mahesh Chowdhury laughed and said, when did I say big philosophical words again? I'll tell you if I know! Well, I'm telling you that.
Don't stay, even if I don't understand.
Um, of course, yes, I know this, why it's something known in advance. I will not leave the matter without explaining it to you.
In Mahesh Chowdhury's stubbornness, Madhabilata suddenly gets a big smile. It seems that if he doesn't understand the word, Mahesh Chowdhury will start something like the way he bowed to Sadananda's feet one day, the way he bowed to Bibhuti at Sadananda's feet this morning.
If you do not understand?
Mahesh Chowdhury said calmly, don't laugh, don't laugh. You will understand, you will understand. Listen. The quarrel with Bipinbabu in the morning, when the man started walking towards the house with pain in his mind, to save his self-esteem? You thought, if you talk well with Bipinbabu, everyone will think you are a coward, you will be insulted by people. Tell me, is it awkward? You think the same thing all day long, Bipinbabu is also thinking. The peace of mind of both of you has been lost. If you had said two sweet words with a smile, Bipinbabu's anger would have melted in an instant. You also wanted to think with Bipinbabu without quarreling, Bipinbabu also wanted that - you were knocked down to save your self-esteem. Whether you envy everyone or not, that's what happens. So that there is no harm to yourself, you can't leave Setuku for the next one.
Madhavilata did not speak.
Bibhuti said, such a fight is better than a slap on the cheek.
Mahesh Chowdhury said, slapped on the cheek, my relationship with the Lord is just such a bibhuti? Am I falling at the feet of the Lord forever? If I had not worshiped the Lord as a god before, it would have been unjust for me to slap people on the cheek today to show my forgiveness and tolerance. Do you know what that means? I am greater than the Lord. But I have no pride in the Lord, no poverty, no generosity আমি I worship him directly as a god. When he slapped me on the cheek, I realized he was terribly angry. I was in great pain, so I grabbed his leg. He loves me very much Bibhuti - I don't know how much he is suffering in his mind to kill me.
Bibhuti was silent for a while and said, "People should be worshiped as gods."
Mahesh Chowdhury immediately ruled that it should not be. People never worship people like gods. But how many people are there in the world? If you are not a human being, why don't you worship people like gods? If everyone were human beings, the earth would be a paradise.
This time Bibhuti was silent for a long time and said, "You are not right, father." There are so many inhumans in the world that one person fears another like a god - not everyone can be human. One is cringing under the pressure of another. But keep talking - why did you force me to bow to him? I do not worship like a painted god. Rather -
Mahesh Chowdhury quickly said, yes, yes, I know. I bow to you as my son. Whether you do bhakti or not is a different matter, even if I had the power to bow to him, it would have been unfair to me if I had not bowed to him. I force someone else. Don't bow down!
Bibhuti sat with her face heavy.
Suddenly after evening Sadananda himself came to Mahesh Chowdhury's house.