Mushroom ceremony and timely haiku "mushroom" challenge

As @beelightfully posted a mushroom theme haiku challenge just after I attended a mushroom ceremony, it seemed only fitting that I try to write my first Haiku(s) and share a little of my journey.

Hope you like one of them 🙃

I travel within
Nature is my space holder
This mushroom powder

Psilocybin hits
A thousand journeys begin
Unlocking brain states

In ceremony
The duality becomes clear
"Am I a fungi?"

Magical mushrooms
We merge together as one
Where do I begin?

Here's my journey:

This sisters circle held on the evening of the full moon eclipse was more magical than I imagined.

We met at 2pm and done a chakra flow yoga session and some powerful breathwork.

As the evening set in we gathered around a fire for some rituals and set our spaces for the night. As we went around the circle and threw sticks into the fire representing things we wanted to let go of and things we wanted to call in, I had a perfect view of the moon entering its eclipse and it was so stunning.

I let go of:
Shame (of my lack of achievements)
Fear of judgement
The remaining need for external validation

I called in:
Decisiveness
Self belief
Focus

I had a ceremonial dose of 3.5g of shrooms mixed with cacao. It tasted so damn good, yum!
Such a magical mix since cacao is a heart opener.

As the shrooms kicked in, I felt like I was going on a thousand different journeys all at once.

My first indication was that I saw letters everywhere, a common thing on my mushroom journeys. The ground becomes a sea of the alphabet, the leaves letters with repeating themes, letters carved into the wood in the fire and the part that often fascinates me; my skin is now covered in letters as though they are scratched in.

Then I went into a body experience of shaking and a little nauseous. This passes enough for me to lie down and journey within. This part felt fast and sporadic, jumping between different visual journeys of what felt like the past and the future and I can't remember most of it. Then it ended and I suddenly felt connected to the element's; I found myself making random noises and felt like I was channeling something. I had let go of fear of judgment in that moment and was allowing these sounds to be. I started whispering "aya", it felt like I was connecting back to the spirit of ayahuasca. Honestly I was questioning if I was possessed. I also felt very connected to the chanting one of our space holders was providing and my voice felt free.

Then I went into feeling a little alone and craving touch, but whist I tried to delve into this it passed, maybe because of the silly things being said and giggling in the circle. I remember thinking damn I can't stay sad. I also remember thinking hmm which journey should I follow, then laughed at how I'm even indecisive on my mushroom journey.

I decided I wanted to interact and just give love so I reached out to a couple of the girls and had beautiful pure heart interactions. As I was with Taya, Valentina came and joined us and we ended up becoming 5 or 6 girls all merging into one. So much love. I held them. Wow these beautiful souls.

I moved away to apply bug spray and switched into a different journey. I felt restless. I felt a little nausea and suddenly like I wanted to connect to the space holder that was sober, but she wasn't available. I felt myself go into judgment; why was she lost in her own fun journey with one girl when she was meant to be holding space. I guess a feeling of abandonment or someone not doing what they promised. Then feelings of jealousy washed over me, at what seemed like a sensual/sexual encounter they were having, I felt lack. I wondered around a little feeling unsettled and also found myself connecting in to other peoples purging, especially when they were with the ceremony leader who was helping them release. I felt it in my body. It was the weirdest thing and made me think of my ayahuasca journey where the shaman vomited for me.

Suddenly I switched out of it, what was I doing, did I actually need this person? No! I went back to my girls I was with before and they held space for me as I went into my wounds. I felt so loved and like they had the perfect words.

It reached somewhere around 4am and the ceremony ended. I was still feeling the effects so Taya invited me to stay with her. The battery died on the Van taking us home so we had to go in search of a taxi. Luck was on our side and 7 of us piled into this little taxi with Taya getting in the boot, providing us all with a fun filled ride home. Even more crazy since I was still seeing letters in all the nature flashing by out the window.

We dumped our stuff and headed to the ocean.
Waves crashing over us with the beautiful moon to the right and the sun rising on our left. Are we in heaven? it sure felt like it. Wish I had a photo to share but this one shall have to be just in my memory.

I'll add that in some parts of Mexico mushrooms are legal (so I don't get into trouble haha).