Random blabbering

I don't know what's going on with the planets ( actually I do know ), but it has been such a weird couple of days.

I haven't slept in days, or at least not more than 3-4 hours a night, yet feeling weirdly perky.
Ok, I may also have slipped back to my coffee addiction, which always equals a slightly over the top version of me 😅 but hey it can be a good thing sometimes. . .

After, yet another 3 hour sleep, I got up this morning, and seeing how the Gemini season is raging out there ( so windy ), I decided I needed a dance, to move this crazy energy in me.
I feel when you move your body, in whatever way , shape or form you want, is always the way to get back to your self and ground a bit.

I've been feeling a little nervous, I realized as I was coming back to myself.
I have a call scheduled in a bit with my sister, with whom I have a very interesting relationship with.
We never lived together, she is ten years younger, and we have experienced a very different upbringing.
She was "the dog who is sleeping on the velvet cushion in the cozy room", while I was the one "who sleeps in the garden, under a little shed, so at least doesn't get wet" kind of dog.

I always realize that being in my own bubble of friends and choosen family is relatively easy, but when it comes to my blood related ones, the stories are just to vivid.
Even when I say I have put them down, they always come up and bite me in the ass ( excuse my french).

So, having this call scheduled with her, which is also the first time we speak this year, is making me question, who am I going to be on this call?
Will wounded little Petra, who feels abandoned by her Daddy will come out and play?
Will psycho b*tch Petra start making sarcastic comments on everything ( although sarcastic comments are there no matter what, especially when I am caffeinated).
Or perhaps 'love and light' Petra will be here, being all mature, and a loving big sister, who genuinly cares about her sisters new life since she relocated. . .

We will see very shortly, I guess. . .

But glad I have reflected before hand. . . thanks for your ears 😅