Hello Blurtisians,
'I would change my future.' That is, where I am now from ten years ago.
There have been so many mistakes to stem regrets but I comfort myself with the gift of experiences and lessons I gained from most of them. They've helped shape my life but if I could go back in time to change one, it would be the one from 2010.
I was freshly out of secondary school and I was so desperate to get into the university.
I wrote JAMB the same year, applied for a course different from my father's dream course for me, and for an institution far away from home.
I was just 15 and my father thought I was brilliant and he wanted me to study Medicine and Surgery.
I wrote four more times before registering for Pre-Degree in an ln institution close to my home. It was what my father wanted.
It was Medical Laboratory now but all to no avail.
The same year, I applied for Science Tech. in Federal Polytechnic Nekede Owerri and was offered Dispensing Opticianry.
Two years and I was done with my National Diploma and was out.
I wrote JAMB again and gained admission into Imo state university.
Now, the mistake wasn't in accepting to study my father's dream course for me. He loved me and wanted the best for me. I never thought he tried to lead me astray.
My mistake was in my desperation to get into the university.
I had so many opportunities to learn as many skills as I would've wanted. To develop myself.
I was young, surrounded by people who did a lot of beautiful things and were ready to teach me. But I didn't think acquiring skills were important.
'Aka oru.'
I didn't think there was a need for it. And even when I went years after years allowing my JAMB results to determine my happiness and the course of my life, I didn't also learn the importance of acquiring skills until 2017.
I went for fashion designing and it was for the worst reasons ever - and now that I think of it, rather than blame it on other things, I think the reason I never completed my training was that I lost interest. For something, I went into because everybody else was doing so. Because I just wanted to learn something - even when there was no passion for it at the time.
If I could go back in time, my desperation to get into school is something I would've changed. I would've taken a year or two to develop myself. To find my passion.
I don't regret where I am now but I bet I would've been in a better place, and have become a better person had I known better at then and given myself enough time.
Right now, I am making up for most of all that mistake cost me.
If you could change a thing in your past, would you do it?
WHAT DO YOU IMAGINE YOURSELF BEING TEN YEARS FROM NOW
AliVe!
Ten years ago, my goals were on money and some other material possessions. Well, here I am without most of those but with a consciousness that grows every day.
Growth. And I am more glad.
Now, what I imagine doing in the next ten years is having a simple life. Being happy. Living.
I would have gained this experience that I have always longed for - working for/under someone, with colleagues all around the place.
Getting to follow a particular routine every day for a year or two.
And then I could be found anywhere doing everything that has to do with historical filmmaking, storytelling, photography, copywriting, and taking care of children.
I would've read as much as I wanted and learnt from experiences, books, and everything else that helps my mind grow.
I would love to learn business intelligence. This was never on my list until today after I listened to Mr. Kunle Soriyan's talk at the leadership conference in FUTA.
He talked about how he never waited around for his passion and went into learning something that was never in his interest and that changed the course of his life.
For me, that was just understanding that life comes in very different forms and getting ready for it.
So ten years from now, I'd love to be 'business literate' and then own a successful one.
Ten years from now, I would be loving a man so passionately. Mothering a few kids and having the best times of my life.
I have always wanted to build an orphanage home and a platform to offer education to children - especially ones who do not have it so easy in life.
I hope to have started on these goals ten years from now.
My preferred musical taste might change by then but if it never does, I would've attended the Rebel Salute in Jamaica once or twice in ten years to come.
Sunsplash and every other reggae festival and music concerts I would know about.
In ten years from now, I would live in Lagos - with the freedom to travel anywhere around the world.
Today marks three years since I returned from Lagos and I have intensely loved that crazy place ever since.
Maybe a few years ago, I would've just left everything to God and said I take each day as it comes, but I have learnt the power of words, wishes, faith, and the universe.
So this is me writing all of these into existence.
Ten years from now, I would be 35 and having the best years of my life yet.
What do you imagine yourself being ten years from now?
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