I sometimes find it difficult to understand why the world is full of wickedness. The world is so unfair that I no longer understand where we are headed. One moment there is peace and the next we hear an explosion in the neighbouring state. Lots of innocent people dead and the families left in pain. I sometimes wonder if we're actually meant to live in peace or the idea of war and hatred is as planned by the creator.
I see a lot of people in pain, going through a lot, losing loved ones to sickness and disease, living in poverty, world hunger and so on. Yet the rich keep on getting richer while the poor... you know the rest. Even the rich gets sick, diseases that money has no power over befalls them and kaboom we just have to say goodbye to loved ones. In the end I realise that life in itself is pointless, and the purpose of life is meaningless.
I sometimes feel like we're all nothing but lab rats in this giant laboratory called Earth. I feel like the creator is simply messing with us and experimenting with us. We're all nothing but test subjects ij this anomaly and everything happening to us- war, peace, famine, world hunger, pain, death, birth and so on is nothing but as planned.
I sometimes wonder- "is the creator all good and all powerful?". I mean, one can be either all good or all powerful but not both except in special cases. If the creator was all good then he isn't all powerful. And if he is all powerful then he isn't all good. Think about this, imagine he was all powerful and all good then he could simply snap his fingers and all the pain in the world will end. Death will end, war will not happen anymore and peace will begin to reign. Choosing to not do anything simply means that everything we're going through is all part of his plan and our existence is nothing but negligible.
What if his purpose is to simply observe and not to interfere because he actually enjoys the war and pain we experience because he is being entertained by this. In the end, who are we to question the creator- he created all things for his own pleasure, hence our pain and suffering means nothing to him.
I do not intend to be atheistic, in fact atheists do not believe in the existence of a god complex. I choose to believe that a god exists somewhere but I insist that this god isn't both all powerful and all good. After all, you can't be both and still allow the world to be as messed up as it is. Just snap your fingers and let things get good... if you have the power, just do it already.
I do not doubt the existence of God, I sincerely do not. All I'm saying is that our existence is for nothing more than his entertainment and our prayers can't change his mind!
Pardon my rants.... I'm simply being realistic!
