Life is very tiring because of the people who tried to leave and held my hand. There is no difference between now. I'm so sick of everything. Don't be surprised if you suddenly find out I committed suicide. Don't be disappointed because you knew it was going to happen. No need to point fingers at the person nowadays. He is also just a tourist. No responsibility about me. I will love you until she stops. I heard it from his own mouth. Since I used to that, I made up my mind by wiping my eyes. I cut my phone off before Usha said anything. A poison exploded in my mind and started flowing loudly.
I haven't been out of the house in days. There were a couple of crows in an antenna out of the window of the flat. Was looking at the pair of black crows under the blue sky without feeling. Only color was drawn in my mind. It's so tired dealing with people being too honest. A breath came along with the chest pain and went away.
What karma do you face the bad things that you try to keep romantic deals that don't need end. So many problems circulated around my mind that I can't say let's stop. I woke up to make tea thinking it's better to have peach tea than staring at the sky without rain in a long time.
Love is a sweet deception. I must have experienced enough of that. Any place to stop now. Don't want to go anymore. Did I mess up the herd. He must be scared. The only female image that can talk about anything. No criticism about me. Just had a friendly exchange of ideas with Usha.
I ringed to usha.
The girl... Cause baby I got scared. Usha said it in anxiety. Usha I am so tired. I won't do that even though you think I'm sorry for disturbing you. I laughed at this. It wasn't me who laughed but. I was still in trouble. That fake smile was made for my best friend. Wish Usha was around. Felt like holding someone's hand tightly. Only a friend can't relieve the sorrows of the men who stopped to open their hands while running. I can't even say that.
It's almost time for four. I came out in the wash with an instant thought. Went to a flower shop. I picked some beautiful flowers and made a bunch of them. Took it and walked down the street. I always love the gardens of forests near Thunmulla. I was walking around with a bunch of flowers. I felt like I'm the one who needs to heal my mind.
Enough of the distance we came with the past. Tired of a lot. Need to think about tomorrow. Reminded me of a nice email sent by Abraham Augustine. She had told me to stop suffering so deeply. Open your heart and enjoy spring. True I am in a serious suffering. Spring must have come and gone I'm feeling that spring too. I need to find the girl I used to be. Naughty wake me up again. Help me find my self.
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