November 16 - dairy

in blurt •  4 years ago 

November 16.
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Hi, Dada!

It's been 5 years since the day you left me. Do you still remember me? I am the child you left 5 years ago. I hope you still do, because I still remember you.

I still remember how you buy and give me lemon square as a reward for being a good girl when I was a child.

I still remember the time when you teach me how to draw for the first time. And the picture of your drawing is still vivid in my mind. And I'm still amaze on it.

I still remember how we ride your motor and sing like there's no tomorrow, and don't care about people who can hear us.

I still remember how you spoiled me. Giving me toys, bears, dolls, dollhouse, foods and even money. All that a child can wish.

I still remember how you arrange a party every Christmas for me and my friends because you are that kind. How you arrange outings every summer for eveyone that you treated not only as a friend but also as a family.

I still remember the times that you and I together with Mommy, will go to famous churches and places just for me to experienced it, although I'm still a little girl back then and don't have any idea about where am I.

I still remember how I cry and beg everytime my real parents don't allow me to go with you, everytime you needed to go home. Yes. My real parents. Your own home.

I know I 'm not your real child. But I also know that you treated me as one . And yes, I still clearly remember all of that. I still remember our happy memories, me, you and Mommy, like a happy family. But sadly it will just remain as a memory and never gonna happen again.

Everything change. Everything went upside down since I entered elementary. I thought you're in good terms, Dada and Mommy. But it turns out your relationship is slowly fading. Slowly breaking.

And guess what, Dada? It's because of you. I trust you. You are my idol. You are my inspiration. You are my artist. You are my all. I love you more than I love my real father and even more than I love my self. But how can you do this? How can you do this to me? To Mommy? To all of us?

You're a cheater.

You cheated on Mommy.

You lied to me.

And I hate you for doing that!

Until now my thoughts and questions are still hunting me. Like, why did you do that? Did I do something wrong? Didn't follow you? Did I miss something? Or is it about Mommy who cannot give you a child? But Dada, I'm here. You have me.

You made promises to me, right? But I guess you can't make it.

I know it's impossible for you to read this because this is another world, where I can hide my identity and express my self more.
I know that you're happy with your new family now. And I want you to know that you're the first man who broke my heart.

And I hope you still remember me. Because me? I still remember you.

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