I was lucky that I was able to manage my pain so that now I am not much tortured by it compared to years ago but I still suffer from it for the reason that factors that causes it is still present. It is not only the main thing which makes my life harder because I also have to endure toxins which are still elevated in my body and it causes lots of issues for me like being unable to eat normally. I also have to endure my marked weakness and my immobility which forces me to lay down on my back because I cannot do anything physically anymore so it causes me to feel frustration because my life had been focused already in surviving and not living normally.

However I have God in my heart and I believe that this life is just temporary although I still want to improve my life because really we can only live once in this world but we must focus with the new world and that is to live in paradise with God where there are no more pain and all these negativities associated with our life on earth where we can also suffer from the problems of countries far from us which is now making our lives harder economically, etc.