My death-scrolling issues but it helps me, Hoping to double my income this year maybe, Still happy

Consumption of media is still okay, it is a good way to entertain us but abusing and misusing it will always end-up in many untoward or negative results in our lives.

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I guess that most of us do this endless scrolling and consuming content in YouTube and other social media sites which actually never satiate our need to see more and watch more. It solves one thing for sure, the boredom, particularly when you are waiting for time to pass-by so that for example you can do some physical thing which you are planning to do after watching some stuffs from the Internet using your Smartphone or tablet for that matter. It is good in a way to not let you feel anxious or it keeps you entertained if you find yourself not doing anything else for sometime or when you are in a break-time or needs to check some idea which came into your mind out of the blue and is curious to learn about it. There are so many reasons not to use your phone even if you are at home especially if you have all the time in the world to saturate your brain with what the internet in general has to offer. Deathscrolling in particular is quite helpful for me because it takes the boredom away which is really what I do not want to happen or else I will start to think negative thoughts because of my situation and condition.

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For my case as a person with disability with appearance and mobility issues, consuming media is my way to fight boredom which might lead to negative emotions and mental issues.

I noticed that most people would use their Smartphones if there was a lull in that particular instance, say if they are in a group of people and no one is talking to them, then to fill that gap, they will simply take out their Smartphone and do whatever they want like using a calculator to sum-up their potential earning if this or that comes up, or check Instagram, Check Facebook, Twitter (X) posts, reddit, Israel, war by Putin, Bitcoin price, I mean in general we now have a tool to meet our demands from the land of Cryptocurrencies, banking and finance, entertainment of many types, and social media usage, and of course taking photos of the best times of their lives along with family and friends. That is what we do in our Smartphones now which in a way is both bad and good for the reason that I guess that our gadgets now is like a knife, you can either abuse it and misuse it or it may help you to be the best of yourself for your own positive gain as well as the people around you when you care about and cares for you.

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For young minds, overuse of media will surely impact their lives in many ways more than one, so based on the people around them or where thy live is what will be the factor on how it can influence them either positively or negatively.

But nowadays about my use of social media particularly YouTube and Facebook, I can't help it but to get caught about watching videos which I find entertaining or invites my curiosities and its too entertaining and I guess that in my situation in life and condition of my health is helping me to not to deathly bored in my life. No more sitting around at the backyard not doing anything but to sit and get teary-eyed thinking about my medical condition, the hopelessness of the situation which I am battling through, and the tragic end which I will face as soon as my family would eventually let me go because we simply do not have the money to support my very heavy medical needs. Well, I am still in dire medical condition but no more worrying about where to source my financial needs, but what also changed from the past few years of my life where I do not have the means of distracting my thoughts is entertainment via videos from social media. If not from these social media videos in the Internet my life had changed for the worst because it take a whole courage to fight my battle and I could have been mentally affected already had my thoughts didn't get distracted by entertainment brought about by our modern-day technologies.

Hoping to double my income this year

Either I chose a stagnant income or double it is up to me, the future is still not as certain as I seem to look at it to be.

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My main income daily is somewhat about less than a double compared to a what a construction worker earns per day, a construction worker here in my country the PH. You can just determine how low I make every single day but it is somewhat constant because it is being earned everyday. Most of it is being reinvested so that I could gain more via a compound "interest" mode of earning through a service which I use aside from the earnings from interests it generates every few seconds or so. But this low earnings can somewhat triple depending on the value of this asset that I am earning because I am earning cryptocurrency and not money although we can still see the value of these collected tokens with my country's currency or the dollar if I prefer it to be valued to the dollar. So as you can see, my earnings really cannot be compared to almost double that of what common construction worker earns because the value of what I earn which is a cryptocurrency changes from time to time.

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The aspect of changing times in the cryptocurrency world makes it more complicated for me to plan my course of action but I guess that it will be a scenario of luck again and I will just cross the bridge when I get there.

My hope is that the value of the cryptos which I hold would at least reach their all time highs from the last halving before this upcoming halving of Bitcoin which is a major mover of Altcoin prices so that I can cash them out with the using a stable coin ad buying back again when cheaper prices would turn-up again. It is the only thing that I can do in order to at least double my earning with this type of cryptocurrency which I hold and had been earning from since June of 2017. So as much as possible I want to triple it and I will be already satiated by that considering that what I was earning today at a daily basis is "money" from profits that I generated thanks to luck, my effort, perseverance, God's own mercy and blessings, and of course the collective assistance of people and persons who showed and made me fell their acts of kindness which made this all happen.

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No matter what happens in the world of cryptos, there are always opportunities for me to grab and win, all because of the nature of the inherent volatility of Altcoins in particular.

A long wait is a factor about buying back cheaper cryptocurrencies so that I can double or triple my capital so that I can earn more from it compared to what I am making currently. So first I must make sure that I already have the funds to sustain myself during my wait for the bear years following the the BTC bull run so that I can purchase a cheaper price and thereby giving me more room are to profit for the next bull run. The thing is that I am not sure if a bear market will ever happen or how shallow it will go if it happens because the BTC ETF could make the volatility lower for the Altcoins even if considering that they are gaining value slowly. I do not want to buy when a coin is soaring because it defeats the purpose of what I want to happen which is to buy cheaper so that I can be able to make a substantial amount of capital from which I could earn more. So at this point in time I am still not sure how the morrow will bring even though the facts are there for me to believe that almost all cryptos will soar but to what extent or what happens before it makes this investing in cryptos still a very mysterious thing to work-out with but at least it is serving me the best and within my imagination.

I'm still happy

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It makes a big difference in my life when the sun shows its face in-between my life full of storms.

There is nothing which I can do for my lost times, things that I could have experienced, things that I could have done, people that I could have met, a family of my own that I could have raised, other things which I could have achieved but what is important now is the current time. Actually I feel lazy already based on the limitations that bars me from doing additional things in my life, I wanted to learn and do something but my body keeps on telling me, "No, you do not have the physical and mental capacity to do it" because in reality I am just trying to cease my day and that is doing what I do every single day under my capacities and telling myself that it is already enough for me to do my role in this life which is what you see from me is what you get. In that way I will not be forced to do anything which could lead to more stresses in my mind and body because I had been through a lot with no more room for any major problems to emerge or it will be my end for sure.

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Accepting things and letting go relieves me of all of my frustrations and it is what I had done lately because not all things are possible.

I have to let go the things that I cannot do or possibly make a reality if it screams an impossibility to happen, I must accept the fact that odds are welded-shut against me with regards to many factors in my life which is why lately I changed my now crazy plans and is just targeting to pay the wages of hardships and tears to other people who cared specifically from my immediate family even though they are a part of my plan. Looking back and looking forward from my past, current, and future achievements if God wills it, I can say that I am a "Work" which is something to be proud of, well maybe it depends on who is looking but I am happy for what happened to me all along, that at least I have reached some milestones in my life that most people cannot and would have been defeated faster if they had been subjected to what I had gone through. It is a part of the loot which you get when you fight and at the end of the day, you are the captain of your ship but with God you are directed to the best destinations fashioned just for you and in this case, for me which somewhat gives me joy and happiness.

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I've been a fighter all these years of my life with the end of shameful defeat like a programmed fate with only a trophy for fighting this long and small victories along the way as my prizes, I have to be happy with all that because it had been my world.