This photo was taken after my session last week as we go back home.
The sky has been always overcast lately because Typhoons are always in the vicinity of my country if not going near to it and I hope that no powerful Typhoons will hit us because it will mean another inconvenience and literal hardship for me and my parents to endure once more. It causes heavy rains to fall and with it a great possibility for the inside of our house to get flooded. I want this thing to get a lasting solution as soon as possible but I still have to be patient about it because rebuilding a new house requires a serious amount of money and that burden I guess will all fall in my shoulders for the reason that my sibling's hands are always full because they have some priorities of their own with their own separate lives.
Now with the temperatures getting cooler and cooler for comfort because it is already the "-ber months", the cooler winds from northwest of my country coming from Siberia will be on play for the rest of these months until the half of February if I am still am alive and see the year after this one. I wouldn't be so sure about my stay in this world to get any longer because in actuality I could have been no longer existing already because of the complications in my body. I do not feel any much better compared to just a few years ago and I will never feel any good in the future because accumulated substances are still piling up inside my body and this body can only take too much beating until it finally say, "Enough is enough, I am done putting up with this mothafoking toxins and I am out".
I am only trying to have a strong inner-self by the mercy of God and being logical about trying to manage my condition but it doesn't means that I am getting better and better and it depresses my mental stability if I would feel literal toxicity in my body because I am constantly living with hardships that I don't deserve nor I would wish to the worst of my enemies so to speak for the reason that my current health condition is really hopeless right from the start and that I am only living in a borrowed time particularly now that it seems that I am in the final stretches of my lifetime.
My motivation to press on further and wanting to see the light of another day are my hopes and dreams that I might get better with my physical body for me to do more in my life for my lovedones and other people as well as bringing more value to my life by achieving more noble things other than karnal things because I know that this life is just temporary and what I really needed to do is to strive to get into the life which is the real life with God.
Anyway, it seemed that I was waiting for eternity for my next dialysis treatment today and the current weather is making it for me difficult to wait because the cooler weather is not allowing my body to let out extra fluids via perspiration, The fact hat the weather will turn cooler for the next four months or so will really make my life harder and it does suck that way because it means that every moisture that my mouth will receive will pile-up fast in my body because there aren't any extra ways to get rid of extra fluids. It is now affecting me which is why I feel sick already with the pressure it creates inside me. So because of that I can't help but to feel depressed. This constant battle of fluid restriction really has making my life harder and the only little relief that I get is after my dialysis, but thanks be to God that I can be saved by the bell again because it is my schedule for my dialysis this late morning and I have to be patient again until I get my needed relief once again.
Photography device: Oppo A92
Camera Sensors: 48MP Main Camera
Camera Mode: HDR
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