On 09.02.2023 I handed in my notice of resignation. On the 14th of March Dobby's officially a free bitch, baby!
With a few free days that I'm still taking out (not all of them, there's still 10 left that they'd have to pay out) that leaves me with just 9 working days left to figure out how to somewhat decently give that fire in the dumpster over to someone.. anyone.. or not. Not that I have much capacity to care any longer, to be brutally honest.
For whatever reason my leaving has been kept secret and thus it has been taxing to continue to keep up the appearances even when I clearly stated that I'm struggling. This is what I mean and this is a major reason of why it's been challenging - in words I hear, we stick together, help each other and make it work, but when it comes to practicality I'm left alone in the cold, fighting on my own against impossible odds.
There's a whole lot more that I could rant about, but I'm just tired and don't really have the capacity to think or worry about it anymore and I know it's a coping mechanism, because if I continued to look at that situation realistically, I'd be stressed out of my mind right now. Still.
But I want to focus on the future. Even though it is also quite stressful, as I do not have an emergency fund to sink my teeth in while I figure things out. All I know is that I don't want to return to corporate environment. Preferably, I wouldn't ever want to write a CV ever again.
It is, most definitely, a leap into the unknown, but I hope to use this opportunity to actually settle my life in a way that is comfortable and works for me and not just something that the world or society dictates.
I do hope that this change in pace will free up my time, energy and mental capacity to be of more value to Hive ecosystem, as, honestly, interacting with Hive in a focused manner has been one of the rare things that give me that child like excitement about life, getting up in the morning and looking forward to something.. something good, something better.. something engaging.
I'm more than happy to hear some advice or ideas of how a Josie can be of more help and usefulness around here, so if you have any of those feel free to drop a comment.
Much love and thanks for stopping by! ^^
~Josie~
_This report was published via Actifit app ([Android](https://bit.ly/actifit-app) | [iOS](https://bit.ly/actifit-ios)). Check out the original version [here on actifit.io](https://actifit.io/@josie2214/actifit-josie2214-20230223t205153680z)_